My entire life I've heard of people referring to the spirit that they've felt. I've heard people talk about the importance of recognizing the spirit or holy ghost. I've heard it ALL.
But I've never, ever actually done it. Sure I've felt the spirit at SUPER spiritual events like a baptism, or girls camp, or a farewell, or even conference. But I would sometimes go weeks at a time without feeling the spirit or receiving promptings and I would feel like I wasn't worthy of feeling it. Which confused me because I was taught that it would be with me always, especially after I got baptized. And it wasn't. Atleast I didn't think it was. I guess this is where the importance of recognizing it comes in to play.
This week, I've had my mission call for 8 weeks. I've been preparing to serve a mission since 2 months before that, right after October's general conference. That's 4 months of pretty intense spiritual preparation. And this week I finally GOT IT.
For ever I've felt the spirit's promptings. In school I would always know the answers to the questions but I would never answer out loud because I'd convince myself that they were wrong. I'm pretty sure that was the spirit. This week I've had thoughts to take a key someplace that is basically never locked, and it happened to be locked that one time. I've had thoughts to take gloves someplace, or to offer someone something, and then I ignore it and that someone asks for that thing later on in the day. And these thoughts sound different from my own. But they are my own, if that makes any sense. They are quieter somehow. Not quite like the yelling that goes on in my head most of the time.
I am learning to recognize that I am special in God's eyes and He has sent is spirit to be with me. The Holy Ghost really is a special gift that everyone can have. It is a way cool thing to recognize, because it becomes much easier to notice after you do notice and heed it.
